Life

Remember the lyrics from K-Ci and JoJo's song, LIFE?

Just like a birdie

I just wanna fly free.....

Shouldn'ta gone down this way

What happened to my master plan

Cuz I can't figure out....

I'm not too sure about where I am or where am going; but I know that I'm not content feeling this way.

Oh my word....

Back or not ??!

Hehehe.....

Well, I have gone missing for so long and how long I will stay on and post is unknown to me but I'll make the most of the time I have now since I can post a thing or two.

I looked at my past drafts (unposted) items and I was all smiles.  What was I thinking when drafting them in the first place...hehehe...good to know that they didn't go public at all. An idle mind defintely goes without saying is a devil's workshop, and what a busy workship it was then.

People have moved on and blogs somehow inactive....hmmm....will someone please bring back the crack we used to smoke then 

Blogging was like crack, so so so addictive huh!

Like sisters.......

........we were..........

21st August, 2007 – 15.42 hours. Duration: 22 minutes.

I was on the phone with my cousin and a lot I got to hear from her. It really did make me think after the conversation and I tried to understand where she was coming from and why she thought all that about me. She put it down as a fact and I really didn’t like it one bit.

Was it a thought shared by the close circles of friends/family around her?
Did she find it necessary to communicate the same with me because I happened to get in touch after a long time?

Mark you, this was someone so dear to me and we spoke on a daily basis – nothing could go by in our so-called lives without an update/consent – text or calls or a meet up. We were just tight like that.

When I think back, we used to talk about everything – education, people, men, booze, s.e.x, movies, places to go, the list is endless. We had in a lot in common to share all the time but now we can go a month plus and life goes on. Like it doesn’t faze me at all….but it does on her end - which I got to learn - and it kills me to know that I had deserted her and how many have I deserted on my path to sobriety. I have shut myself out completely and I have to admit, it pains me a lot that I am not living my ol’ life…..I miss everything about it, everything!

In a nutshell, I have changed or I presume I have. My life now is easily compared to - well, can it even be compared. I put the:

B in boredom
M in monotonous
D in dull
U in unexciting
I in indoors
R in recluse

…………….need I say more…?


Have I really changed? The thought keeps on banging like a hammer pounding on an anvil after the conversation.

According to her, I used to be a fun-loving chic, jovial, outgoing, easy/cool to hang out with, easy to talk to, friendly, loving, caring and shared a lot of this and that. It was just super!!!! Everyone loved it and me for that, coz it was just me living my jolly good life.

To all this, I replied –

Cmon gal, what's wrong with ya!! Its work and I have grown up. My priorities have to change now. Gimme a break, will you?

But this answer wasn’t good enough at all. Errr…coming to think of it, it was dumb of me to have said that in the first place...who said growing up is boring??? Huh?? I must be crazy...jeez k.i.d.a.d.a!!!

I’m still young, not married and a foxy mama (H to the E.L.L.O)!!!

(take TWO perhaps....)


She was missing the ol’ stories we used to share – the life and tales of k.i.d.a.d.a was a chapter that was closed and hadn’t been reopened.

It was at this point when it dawned on me that she was complaining and misses the old me.

What really happened to me and why?

Change? Growing up? Work? A break from what? ........I really suck.....hehehe......why lie?

Strung-out?

.......and I tossed and turned.......

Italia baby.....

Oh yes!!

The World Cup is here again, but of course and I'm rooting for the one and only country Italy...other than the talent...hmmm....the men are so so so stupendous....

Don't you just love watching them....working hard to score goals, tackling each other, prespiring, getting all angry at each other.....MEN AT WORK on turf kinda thing going on right there....ohh bwoy!!!! LOL! Yeahhh baby!!

WHY ITALY?

Well, in a nutshell, why don't we just sit back and relax....the match's on tonight!

L'Italia vincerà!!! Without a doubt!!

Ohhh...I forgot, you can always jump onto this bandwagon right here....

Everyone's supporting France/Argentina/Brazil....why I ask?? Two good players don't make a team....Italy on the otherhand....hmm....need I say more!!

Arrivederci for now...

Sweety My Baby

Oh my word!! I need all the HOOTCH I can get back in my life! It has always been and will remain...sweety my baby.....

This is how I feel.....like the above....an empty martini glass....with nothing going on....

I have been craving..
I have been thirsting...
I yearn for one, I mean several.....

Have you wanted something so bad you could actually taste it…trust me, right this minute, right now, this moment….I wish I could be sipping some….yeah…on the rocks to be precise!!

Every day after work, I always get this urge and my defenses are growing weak every passing day.....I surely, truly.......cannot hold this urge any more...

Sorry cause I just wanna have of a sip of that good stuff...its just indescribable...

This temptation is just irresistable....

Sorry for I have forsaken thee.....I need to hang out or sum’thing like that...wanna have some of that good stuff…

BRICKZ
FINALLY....

Yes, I finally got this dude.....but of course, has to do with my music collection....

He looks like a ruff neck or sum’thing like that but one song…."Sweety My Babbyyy"….is my favourite...Holla!!!



I think his music is so so cool, especially….Sweety ma baby...plus Tjovitjo!!!!

Alright...TODDLES! Please keep you're fingers crossed for me....at least I get to drink instead of work work work and no play...aaarghh...don't you just hate this sometimes!?!

Can ya'll feel me?
Can I get a witness...?

This man

I got a text from a dude...yeah, a dude I had/have the hots for............!!

REWIND

The first time I saw him, I was like....dayummm, does the good Lord still make them this fine...I was totally mesmerized, but I had to play it cool, can't let dude know I am loving his cool!!

My cousin Stacey had one look at him and she was like.....k.i.d.a.d.a....what are you waiting for? He's one fine man....

Gave me the thumbs up sign and I was like...easy girl, don't you know I'm not going to show it all up in his face like I do with other guys...LOL! There was just something about him that made it difficult for me to even chat him up and I'm always the bold one.....To tell you the truth, my, my, my, is all I could think and tell myself each time I glanced at him.

His attire was stupendous....I just loved his jacket, his trousers, his shirt, his shoes....aaaahhh...it was lovely...aahh....can remember each and every detail as I was scanning this dude up and down...

When he approached me, I was like, k.i.d.a.d.a.....why the hell are you freaking his presence around you....it was overwhelming and unbearably HOT....yeah, I was burning up inside ;)

We then were chatting and getting to know what was going on around us and the usual stuff men ask ladies....uh huh, you know what I'm talking about. Cloud nine doesn't even begin to describe the feeling.

FAST FORWARD

He's a bad boy and when I say a bad boy, I mean he hustles, he got crazy/mad game and he's just baaaad!!! Mr. Nice is what he becomes with me but his mates know him as a hustler. Yeah, k.i.d.a.d.a was drawn to this dude and.......

These words perfectly describe him:

I'm a hustler baby [I'm a hustler]
I just want you to know [Wanna let you know]
It aint where I been [It aint where I been]
But where I'm bout to go [Top of the world!]
Now I just wanna love you [just wanna love you]
But be who I am [you know you love me]
And with all this cash [mo' money, mo' problems]
You'll forget your man

First text received:

What's up babe? Still got my milkshake?

Now this is an inside joke...I texted back with a big smile on my face....you should know fellow bloggers and mates out there, this one dude always does it for me....jeez!!!!

He replied:
Is the milkshake still mine or am I too late? How have you been my dear. Miss you so much, are you going to come back coz I'll be leaving for South Africa..........

and it went on and on........

NB: "Remember Kelis' tune - Milkshake?? Yeah.....that sums it up!

Why is it that certain dudes just cannot get out of your mind no matter what - time does nada to this equation right here - infact time makes it worse? They just need to communicate and then BINGO!!! he's got the juices flowing like it was just yesterday......

Do guys experience this? Do ya'll also have this one chic? She just needs to say, "Hello there" and then BANG!

What to do when you got it so bad for this one particular chap......I know, I got it bad but under control :)....yeah right....JEEZ....k.i.d.a.d.a.....get yourself together now!!

Kiddie

What delivery?

Baby delivery are the keywords here. It's got me thinking, when will k.i.d.a.d.a avail herself for that one type of delivery? My body is telling me YES, but my mind is typically saying NO! Which one will take over? Are the two conflicting train of thoughts making me indecisive and how soon will I make up my mind for that one delivery!



Can I find a man who wants to make babies....ehem, yeah right....HA!!

I've not made up my mind yet but I've been feeling this way for over a year now and to care for one will be wonderful....but jeez, when they cry or is it wail...I just won't stand it...

But....to touch those teeny weeny feet..



Or just watch it play with you...that closeness/bond is just one of a kind...



Yeah, so it's official, k.i.d.a.d.a wants to make babies but......

TIC! TOC! TIC! TOC!

Hips Don't Lie

I had time this weekend to chill out and watch tv, which is so unlike me....the number of music clips are astonishing, I am so not in touch with music videos....whatever happened to that chic? Huh??

Flicking through channels, I came across one clip that left me mesmerized....













We all remember the belly dancing that was in Whenever, Wherever.....

Then came La Tortura

Now Hips Don't Lie!!! Aiii Caramba....Mamma Mia!!!

I wanna give it up to Shakira....the gyrating makes me wanna crawl back and go for lessons on shaking that waist. Talk about boneless and spineless....it's just L.O.V.E.L.Y!! Those hips most definitely don't lie.....Shakira, I salute you with both hands...you go gal!!!!

I want that......I need that.......Can I have that???

Dayummmm, I just wanna belly dance like Shakira!!

Arsenal...allez allez allez!!! In the finals NOW!!

To the KBW winners, kudos to ya'll. I hope you'll keep us entertained! Cheers....we should drink to that.....whatcha think?

Ex factor

I got a shock of my life yesterday. Ha! Thought I wasn't going to blog about it, didn't ya! Well surprise boo, here I come out to fire...LOL!

Well, I haven't emailed my ex and vice versa for like ages. So as usual, my daily routine is to get updates from all corners of the world...yeah, from my k.i.d.a.d.a clan members.

Out of the blue, I receive an email from my ex and I'm like, this is exciting!!! But of course, the case of the ex is a wonderful one my friends, beautiful and magnificient...mmhhh!!

We get emailing back and forth, then he drops the bomb shell, he's got a girl and loves her to bits.

Jeez, did you read k.i.d.a.d.a - now a green-eyed monster in the making?

I was full of envy and as usual, I asked him to describe the lady, you know the whole she-bang, the whole nine!!!

NB: We ladies love knowing what's so good and outstanding about this new woman in our exes life!! We just wanna suss them out a lil' like that you know.

Dude confidently went on to give me her vital statistics and literally the height, hair, complexion blah blah blah.....I was like getting really jealous by the minute...arrghhh....how could he be so smitten. He used to be crazy about me, I used to make him go gaga over me, I always made him weak in the knees and then some........

Jeez, gimme a break, get me a kit-kat bar or something!!

Of course, not wanting to sound awful, I go.....

"WOW!!! I'm so happy for you boo and I'm sure you're a happy man now."

Then he had another surprise in store for me. I was like really dreading this because I felt like I was going to expect the unexpected about the new couple....like we're going to get engaged or something along those lines...

He told me he's been blogging for ages and he's blog is www..................................com!!!!!!! Trust me, you've all been there and commented. How he managed to keep it on the down low is beyond me...but I'm impressed love, very impressed!!!

I was dumbfounded, stunned and amazed. For so long and how could I not tell at all. Did I loose my touch? LOL!

EX....you're just unbelievable!!! *blows kiss*